when Mother Nature becomes cruel

so today was day nine past when my period was due so i finally put on my big girl pants grabbed my pregnancy test and ran to the bathroom secretly hoping and praying this was finally our month after 5 years of ttc....i get the test out the box sit down on my porcelin thrown am about to open the clearblue pack with a single test stick and look down on a hunch to and....aint that a bitch that b****h Aunt Flow is here 9 days late, but here just as we were all excited with our hopes high....i dont have pcos but i was born 2lbs 9 oz 13 weeks premature drs said to my parents itd be difficult to concieve but after 5 years youd think i wouldve got knocked up by now...this happens every other month she late our hope go up then bammmm ' im here bitches' btw how do you know when to use an opk? ive never used one before mu hubby prefers it olkïd fashioned meaning we just do the dirty every other day then every day during the 2 weeks following my period...

Go Away on vacation after this visit preferablly for say 9-10 months!!!