Hello ladies... feel like I need to let off some

Steam... me and my husband have 2 kids already and my husband has an older child

From a previous relationship... we have been ttc for quite some time now... our youngest is almost 6!! It just doesn’t seem to be happening... last month I thought it we had made it when I done a test and it showed a faint line but quickly after I started bleeding... but I’m now at the point where I’m quite frustrated and exhausted with it all tbh... here I am at day 1 of missed period again... done a test last night it was BFN I just feel like it’s not going to happen for us again and I don’t know weather to just give up! It’s so emotionally draining that I don’t know how much longer both of us can continue to hope and prey and beg and plead with everything known to man that it happens again for us... I just feel like am I being really selfish feeling like this when I am already extremely lucky to have two perfect children.

I just don’t know what to do anymore...

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