Well today is my follow up appointment for my ER visit Sunday. I’m scared and nervous. I’m sure the news won’t be good. I’ve been here too many times before. I’ll be six weeks tomorrow and feel absolutely nothing symptom wise. No sickness, no sore breasts nothing. Hopefully my levels have doubled and are at 60K today. Hoping everything is ok but I don’t feel confident in this visit today. This would be my second loss this year. I lost one in March at 9 weeks. This being my 6 th pregnancy with only one living I’ve ready to just give up. I don’t understand why my body hates me so much or why the universe insists on testing me. I just want 1:30 to get here so I can get the inevitable over wo h. I’ve already prepared myself for the worst.