I feel like I can't be sad because he expects me to always be happy. If I get sad he turns it around and says what about me or you're always sad. It hurts I have to hold it in, infront of him it breaks my heart. I feel like I'm in this alone I know he wants a baby to but he doesn't show any emotional. I know he's a guy and probably thinks it's not ok for guys to cry. He just doesn't understand I'm in the restroom crying and feeling broken with every negative test. Month after month when my period comes I'm heartbroken. I just want to give up and curl in a ball and cry. Every time he sees me sad he trys to make me smile. I don't want to smile I just want to cry. I know he's trying to help but it's always "What about me" "You're always sad" "I can't even have fun because you're always sad." I can't help it, if just happens and I can't deal with this anymore. I know he loves me but I feel like I'm in this alone.