Ladies,

My little girl is now 11 days old, & perfect, & I adore her.

She ended up being delivered via emergency C-Section after I only reached 5cm dilated after 16hrs of labour & 3 bags of the oxytocin drip.

(She wasn't in distress, she was fine, there was just nothing else I could do)

I am really struggling to feel any sort of connection with the way she was born. I don't feel as though I gave birth to her.

It feels like, in the end, the way she was delivered had nothing to do with me, like her birth was something that happened to me, not because of me.

I don't feel massively bonded with her yet, & I don't know if this is why, or if it should take this long to really feel that connection.

I am not trying to suggest that women who have Cesareans don't give birth to their babies, but that's how I, personally, feel about my delivery, so please don't hate on me.

That's not what I'm saying.

Am I alone in feeling this way? Has anyone else felt like this? How did you get through it? Do you now feel like you played a part in your babies delivery?

Help me please 😭