so i am diagnosed with ocd. i am always convinced i’m dying and i constantly check my own pulse, or sleep sitting up, etc. because i’m convinced i’m literally going to die if i don’t do it. (ironically, i have a history of suicidal thoughts + actions) ocd is literally the worst thing i’ve ever experienced and i would never wish it upon anyone else. my whole life is dysfunctional because of my ocd.

i noticed that a lot of people, including ADULTS, don’t realize ocd is a real disorder. for example, a teacher at a camp i volunteer at says, “oh no my ocd is acting up looks like we have to move some people so all of the instrument sections are together” or another teacher at the same camp saying “people dropping their instruments triggers my ocd” and just. please stop. that’s not what ocd is! ocd is gross and ugly and disgusting and NOT quirky and cute like everyone thinks it is.

the kid sitting next to me goes “i know i have ocd” so i’m like omg someone like me! i ask him what is obsessive thoughts and compulsions are. he says “i don’t have any obsessive thoughts. i also don’t have any compulsions. but i have to clean my room when it’s dirty.” and i’m just like!!!! what the FUCK. people should be educated. one of my anxiety triggers is when people romanticize disorders like that. and i just am so tired of it. sorry for this long rant!