Random thoughts from a woman who just gives up

I give up

I can't take the crying. I can't stand that im completely jealous ALL the time. I can't take the fact that I have all these thought swirling in my head that put me down. (Example...Beth you are a loser. Haven't had a job in 8 months simply becuase your boss at your full time job was a bully...you could have stayed and took it...it would have been a job after all. You also cant concieve a baby and everyone thinks you're a baren woman and tbats all you'll ever be. )

Im tired.

I won't ever be mother....its very hard to say it and it hurts my heart and soul and crushes my spirit.

Anyways thats my thoughts.