Feeling devastated. Tweaks welcome

Tammy • Me and my DH have been TTC for nearly 4 years now. We have 2 beautiful children already, a boy and a girl, and would love one more addition:-)
I took a blue test 2 days ago. I am now 6 days late with AF and took a Frer comfort sure with afternoon urine. I had gotten my hopes up with the faint lines on the blue but then this Frer kind of killed my joy after 3 years of trying...