How do I know if I’m in a good relationship? We usually fight over the smallest things. But sometimes it’s not small. I needed help with our colicky three month old because my arms legs and back were dying from holding him ALL day long! But he didn’t get up to help or ask if I needed help. I’ve always been a push over, never stood up for myself. We make up kinda fast tho. He said I was lazy and didn’t do anything for him. Yes our room is a mess at the moment and the laundry is dirty but our baby hasn’t let me set him down or he screams bloody murder. He doesn’t understand how physically and emotionally draining it is to take care of a baby. We’ve fought so bad that we were inches away from a divorce (multiple times) I love him and we have good moments too... I just wish they’d happen more often. And I don’t mean we have to spend time together (have been trying to do that more) I mean I want him to be more romantic instead of being playful. I want a man not a child. I know this shouldn’t be a big deal but in the 4 years we’ve been together he hasn’t once gotten me flowers... no matter how much I’ve hinted at him. He got me a card once with the most beautiful thing he’s ever written but in one of our horrible fights he ripped it up and I was devastated because it’s SUPER rare for him to do anything like that.

Sometimes I don’t know if we even have a connection anymore but I love him so much.