In my feelings...I guess 😭

I am dealing with the guilt of having an abortion. It was my senior year a month before my internship. I actually found out when I was about roughly 8 weeks. My bf and I had been together for about 2.5 years so I was happy yet scared. My family is uber religious so I knew my mom would be disappointed. I feel like I was pressured into doing it. When I told my boyfriend, his first response was abortion. I was crushed but ultimately I knew it was the right thing for our circumstance. So now, every year around July which would've been my due date, I get really sad and depressed. I can't express my feelings to my boyfriend because it's like he totally just forgot what happened. I feel like I'm dealing with it alone. Anybody can relate me?!