Never having a baby

anessia

I’m 25 years old and my older and younger sisters have babies . I tried with my now ex boyfriend , a few years ago (2015) nothing happened . But this year with my new boyfriend we don’t try but I thought i was a few times since we been having sex. I missed my period by a whole month it normally came on around the 14th it came on the next month on the first ... I was so happy finally thinking this is gonna happen , my auntie grouped texted all the females in our family cause she was having dreams about fish again , i really was so excited and my boyfriend without me telling him, he called me one day and was like I been throwing up and this and that . He was like you know your pregnant right but few days ago I thought I was going to be late again the 1st came and passed , and it came on around the 5th . I have to dats left on my calendar and it’s going on . Ps . I just founded out my younger sister is pregnant again she’s 7 months I guess that post was meant for her but my auntie had a dream about fish months before . Idk I’m so sad I just want to have a baby myself , but I don’t think I can have any I feel so bad thinking this will never happen for me