Why is it every month I put myself thru the same crap. Symptom spotting, googling every "early pregnancy symptom" etc etc etc. And every month it is BFN. BFN. BFN. A gal down the road who is 17, just found out she is pregnant for the third freaking time. She can't even care for the two she has now. Her youngest is 4 months old, oldest is two. Now pregnant again. Feeling defeated and kicked in the gut. I'm over this shit. I just want one baby. All I'm asking for is 1!!!!