Let down again...

J

So... I did a hpt this am and it was a BFN. I am 9 dpo and was so sure that I would get a vfl. My boobs are so incredibly tender, nothing that I ever feel during my normal menstrual cycles. I am feeling so obsessed with the fact that I might be pregnant that it is completely consuming my life. My husband says I am on my phone all the time. AF is suppose to come the 17th. That’s Father’s Day. I pray that I will be able to show my husband a bfp on this day. I even bought little baby botties. I know that all things will happen in Gods time but I am praying that this month is the time. I wish that I didn’t feel so consumed because I think I could possibly be setting myself up for failure.