My mom abandoned my brother and I for eight years to do drugs, gamble, and for men. She would let some of her men molest my sister and I. She stole all of my child support money, and my grandma had to raise me by herself while my great grandma got my sister, and my brother's dad got my brother. She let her current husband threaten to chop my head off with an axe when I got an attitude with her for never being there for her kids. He actually had the axe in his hand. She has beat me, thrown me into walls, and told me I'm the slut when I've been in a committed relationship for 3 years, and only had sexual relations with 3 people including the current relationship I'm in. She would tell me I'm better off dead, and after all that, whenever I see her, I just want to run into her arms and cry even though I want to hate her guts.