So I had more blood work done today won't know the results till tomorrow this whole waiting thang is driving me up the wall I can't sit still I can't stop googling things which makes it worse I just want to know now if it is an ectopic a miscarriage or just what is wrong I know I need to prepare for loss but I just can't let go of that lil bit of hope that the doctors are completely wrong bc I am still pregnant I can't fully wrap my head around not getting a big belly or feeling my sweet lil one kick for the first time or going to labour and feeling all that pain to have something so amazing be laid in my arms this is just making me completely crazy I just can not stand it at all ugh