disappointed i cant get my cycle down

okay sooo i guess i had read my cycle wrong as usual ! i was going by this app and using the obk strips💁soo i inseminated the (11th and the 12th) i slept with the softcup in both days 11th & 12th i took a opk strip i had lines they we're not darker then the control line but yesterday's which was the 12th was darker then the 11th😐 welp get up today take a obk strip and guess what hardly a line.😒 but this site is telling me i have 2 days before i ovulate.i completely wasted our donors time and i am completely hurt, everything we did was for nothing😐😢😢😢 i just can't see how woman can get their days down and ugh i am so mad right now. i just wanna throw my hands up i been would have if my wife didnt want want this so bad. so tired of the let downs