I just don’t get it

We’ve been TTC for 4 cycles now, we feel like we are healed enough to try again after I had a miscarriage two years ago (and learned I’m RH negative.) I just need to vent: my old friend from HS has four kids, got into meth and lost custody, and then had another baby and will be losing custody again. Then there’s me, who waited until I was in a happy, healthy relationship and financially stable, and we desperately want to be parents. So why does she get to have babies and not me? It sounds really selfish, I know, but it sucks balls and doesn’t seem fair at all.

Thanks for letting me get this off my chest ❤️