i give up

11 DPO on month 8 after miscarriage which was devastating. i wish our baby had made it. i loved him/her with all my heart for the 10 weeks i knew they existed. it’s now been 8 months of pure disappointment. did this test yesterday and can see a faint line but honestly think it’s an evap, done a internet cheap strip today and nothing.

period usually comes at 12/13 DPO so expecting it tomorrow. i give up with all this, it’s so stressful. not using ovulation tests next month- had enough of it all. blood test tuesday to check for hormonal abnormalities, just want some answers. 8 months might not seem long to some but it’s been awful. i honestly feel for those who have been trying much longer. 😭😭😣😣😣😣