First NICU baby❤️T minus 4 weeks till birth:(

So today I was diagnosed with cholestasis, which in terms my liver is producing Bile which is EXTREMELY dangerous for baby, undiagnosed increases the risk of stillbirth to something like 25% carried past 37 weeks. I also have gestational diabetes, so was already high risk now this! I now will have NSTS 2x a week, biophysical profiles once a week, OB appointments once a week, bloodwork to monitor my bile levels every week, medication 3x a day to keep the bile levels low, as well as my metformin for GD 2x a day, AND weekly phone appointmentss with my high risk OB to update them on my sugar levels, and will have to probably deliver there because thats the closest nicu(2hr drive from my home town) we will not be allowed to go past 36 weeks so my countdown has really begun! Ill be 32 weeks tomorrow. We hope to have no nicu time, but odds are with me having GD and the cholestasis she will need some NICU time. My beautiful rainbow baby is all worth it, but I am so scared for her:(