Guys I’m freaking out. The boy I kissed first is now dating a guy. I’ve honestly been secretly in love with him for 4 years now. I’m almost 19. It’s just really disappointing. I’m super happy for him. I’m so glad he’s happy. It’s just hard for me to cope with. I know the world doesn’t revolve around me and things don’t always work how I plan. I’m not trying to sound selfish. I’m just looking for some reassurance. I don’t know if anyone else has had a similar experience? Share your stories! I’ve known him since I was a baby. He was my first “baby” kiss, and my first real kiss. It’s just hard for me to cope right now. It just feels like a bad dream. Advice?