I have nobody to turn to anymore. I have had severe depression for over 10 years now. It is possible to manage with multiple medications but I am now 11 weeks pregnant and have not been able to keep down any meds for over a month now. I have extreme morning sickness and none of the doctors can figure out what to do. I have a full time job that I am on the verge of losing because I have missed so much work lately. I had to drop out of school. I have a daughter who is 1 and I can't take care of her. My husband works a job where he is never home. Every night I lay in bed and fantasize about killing myself. I hate this baby I am pregnant with. I begged my husband to let me get an abortion but he says I will regret it because we want another child. I can no longer live my life like this but I have no options other than suicide. It is like this dream thats just out of reach. Death, how wonderful it must be.