I think I’m suffering from depression.

Hi I’m posting this anonymously for obvious reasons so I won’t be replying to comments but any advice help support would be appreciated.

As the title says I think I’m suffering from depression.

Bit of a back story, I have a 1.5 year old child and in August last year when my baby was 7 months I fell pregnant again and had an abortion. This abortion totally rocked my world and I’ve never been the same since. I’m finding my self to be tearful all the time, tired and genuinely just lack interest in life. My little boy is the only thing keeping me going. I’ve been told to go die in an argument before with a loved one and I thought in my head maybe I should but then I think of my little boy and remember who I’m doing all of this for. I don’t seem to be happy anymore and close family members and friends and starting to pick up on this too. I want to go speak to a doctor about it but I feel silly and embarrassed and to be honest I don’t even know what to say? Do I just sit in the doctors office and when they say o how can I help do I just come out with ‘I think I’m depressed?’

There’s a lot more in my head making me think I’m suffering from depression. Can anyone help? I don’t know what I’m actually expecting anyone to say but.. I’m just feeling low, lonely and lost and have been for a while.