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Five days ago I found out..

Crystal • Mon, Jun 18

I had a chemical pregnancy two years ago and it crushed me. It was one month after I had lost my little brother in a car accident too so it was a very tough time for me. Then my husband deployed for a year so baby plans got put on hold even more. He got home in January and we told ourselves we weren’t going to stress over getting pregnant. We were going to let it happen whenever the time was right. Five days ago I took a pregnancy test just for the heck of it. It came out positive and I stood there in shock for a second. Immediately after I got out two more tests to make sure I was seeing it correctly. Then I checked the package to make sure I wasn’t using an ovulation test by mistake. After five positive tests I stood there and cried and shook all while I had a huge smile on my face. I couldn’t believe it! I should also mention I had convinced myself I wouldn’t get a positive because of my weight. I had fully prepared myself to see a negative. Anyway. I have been so terrified I’m going to lose this one too that I now have a total of 18 positive tests because I keep checking every single day, multiple times a day. I feel crazy but I don’t see a doctor for another three weeks so just to give myself that little peace of mind-it seems worth it.