Having sex again ... TMI sorry!!

I kinda don’t know where to turn. I have been talking to this guy for months now. We vibe really well, and met for the first time today. He is moving from another state but will still be several hours away.

Here’s the problem ...

Last summer I was assaulted by someone I knew. It was terrible. I have tried to take this last year and heal. I think I have don’t pretty well. I know that I did everything I could to prevent it, and that my NO was enough and he should have stopped.

I was super excited but I am not gonna lie the distance is working for me right now, for more than just this reason.

As we get more serious I know that sex is going to come up. I’m not ready to tell him what happened. I have had this ruin my last relationship and a friendship.

I’m scared that I’m having sex I’ll start having flashbacks. I’m just starting to get comfortable and will put the breaks on if I need to, but being that I really wanna have sex again. I just want to feel whole again and this is the last thing that I have to break free from.

I feel like I’m being stupid! Why should this matter so much?! Any advice would be greatly appreciated!