I feel like I need someone to talk to but I don’t have anyone atm :(

I’ve been with my boyfriend 3 years this weekend and I feel like it’s come to an end. There’s so much about him that irritates me and I just completely puts me off him. He’s also some really horrible habits, I guess I notice them more now..

I also feel he can be very insensitive at times.

For example I miscarried in March this year and yesterday and on both occasions he’s been more interested in going out with his friends. I don’t know if it’s just me but I feel like he should be with? Making sure I’m okay? He knows how upset and down I’ve been. I didn’t even sleep last night.

It’s my birthday Friday and his on Saturday. I feel like the timing isn’t the best but I can’t force myself to love/want someone.

What do I do :(