We're always at war. Our relationship is just as beautiful as it is a fucking debate tournament. We're constantly at odds because I'm not ready for a relationship. I graduated college last year, but I decided to change my career path. I'm rebuilding my life. & I'm a lik stressed. I feel like placing a title on us will place the pressure of unneccessary obligations that I honestly can't handle right now. 

HOWEVER, we connect on A LOT of levels. &The sex is explosive. I'm a Sag, he's an Aries (highly compatible) & we make straight 🔥🔥🔥. When we go over a week, without him hitting it from the back & me moaning his name, or him sucking my clit telling me how I good I taste while I suck his... you get the picture... it adds to the tension of our conflicting views. We both have such strong personalities. We need to connect physically or things get out of control. We're both vegetarians & try to live a holistic life style, meditation every morning & yoga on Thursdays included. 

My period ended Monday June 11th, so this week was my fertile window. I really teach him about a womans cycle & try to let him know what's going on with me, even down to the level of hormones at a particular time of my cycle, so he doesn't wonder why I may not be in the mood before my cycle, or don't get superwet a couple days after. & sometimes we get a lil reckless and don't use protection, so I need him to know when I'm ovulating so that when I'm not, I give him a treat & let him splash in my ocean without worrying about having to hop in the car with his cum dripping in my panties rushing to CVS at 2 in the morning to get a damn PlanB pill. 🙄

We started off the night so beautifullly. This man juiced a watermelon & made watermelon juice with ginger ice cubes & fried some plantains in cocunut oil with cinnamon & brown sugar😋 We were talking, laughing and connecting, having a cathartic ass conversation & THATS the shit that turns me on. Deep conversations where we can express ourselves openly & some good food, gets me hot & bothered. So we kiss our way to the bedroom, pulling off each others clothes & we get straight to it. He's eating me from behind, splashing his tongue in and out of my vagina, flipping me over, holding my arms above my head while he's diving deep, then grabs my legs & sucks my toes while he's stroking. I'm in another world, moaning and crying, tapping out intermediately and shit. 

About 15 minutes and sweat dripped skin later , he says "Can I cum?" I'm in the zone & I moan "yesssssss" thinking I could use me a lil break before round 2. So he fastens his pace & nuzzles his head in my neck, squeezing my ass tightly as he's about to cum. I'm thinking he's gonna pull out & cum on my stomach. This man leaves it in & starts tongue kissing me - NEVER pulling out. 

I break away from the kiss like "did you cum in me?" He was like "I thought you said I could?!" 

😑 

"Nawwww mannnn, i said yes , as in 'yes you can cum' - not 'yes, you can cum in me'." 

He says, "well are we good? Is it that time of the month? Check the app." 

😳 

I done educated his ass too fucking much. 

So I open up <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a> and it says it the last day of my fertile window. 

 

DUN DUN DUN . 

😩😅 I don't say anything. I just get up and go to the bathroom and let gravity do its thing getting him out of me. I immediately go to Dr. Google & search "chance of getting pregnant last day of fertile window" I'm checking all the sites gathering up my information & of course THE LAST DAY OF YOUR FERTILE WINDOW IS THE DAY YOU OVULATE. 😫😣 

He walks in the bathroom as I'm wiping myself & I'm pissed (😉) because I'm thinking about taking a plan b & becoming irregular because of this shit. So he kissed me as I'm flushing & was like "baby, your pussy tastes like medicine."

 I'm all like 😳 "well I haven't been eating as much fruit to lower my sugar i take to help stop my face from breaking out". LYING. 

He's like "yeah, I did notice your skin is much clearer." 

😅

So I break it down to him that we gotta get a plan B pill. & as I'm cleaning myself up, we end up fucking up the after sex glow, by disagreeing about something from a few weeks ago... At this point, I'm already annoyed that he said I taste like medicine, & mad that we won't reach an understanding on the topic at hand so I put on my sundress & sandals ready to leave so, he hands me a $100 bill as I'm storming out & he follows me outside to my car. 

I get in the car, slamminh my door & he's at the car window telling me to the unlock the door. I ignore him as I plug in the Aux to play Beyonce & Jay Z - Ape Shit. Then look over at him looking all pathetic, sexy and toned telling me to let him in. So I do & he gets in, grabs my neck with both hands, choking me just enough to turn me on & tongues kiss me. 

"I love you." He says & he gets out and shuts the door. I make my way to the 24 hour CVS to get the PlanB & the whole ride I still feel his cum dripping out of me. 

I get home & use the bathroom before I take a shower and I wipe myself only to see BLOOD on the tissue. 😨 WTF is blood doing down here? Aint no fucking way I should be bleeding a week after my period.  Something tells me to Dr. Google "bleeding during ovulation" & its a mother fucking THING. 

Turns out, when your hormone levels are high, women often experience ovulation bleeding. I saw somewhere that only 3% of women experience it. & Some women even look at it as a good sign.

But I'm thinking this man was dunking his tongue in AND out of my pussy, & the WHOLE time I was bleeding. 

🤦🏾‍♀️ 

I was relieved that I now knew why my pussy tasted like "medicine".  But embarrassed that he was doing ALL OF THAT. I never experienced ovulation bleeding EVER before... & I've been extremely open about things concerning my vagina before ... I don't want to gross him out, but I feel like if I don't tell its gonna effect our intimacy because we both pride ourselves on eating clean, being healthy, & looking AND tasting good ... so what yall think... 

Should I tell him? Or let him continue to think I tasted like that because " I'm not eating fruit"?