why is this so hard?

Brianna

AF started this morning just like GLOW predicted. Another month that I'm out. Another month I want to stay in bed and cry the day... week... month away. Every month gets harder and I don't know when to quit. Every month is OPK tests some positive some negative and pregnancy tests that are always pure white solid negatives squinting to see the slightest positive tricking my brain to think that it is my month.