It hurts that I can’t even figure out if I ovulate or not because I’m breastfeeding and even though it just a little it’s still messing me up. What I go through throughout the day since I’ve began weaning my daughter is driving me to the point of tears every time I see a negative test and I see someone else is pregnant or people ask me questions or friends ask so when’s the next one and stuff like that. I believe god will bless us when the time is right but I’m just so frustrated, hurt, and feel unhappy. I wish I could just give my daughter a brother or sister. She’s about to be one and we are hoping to have our kids close in age. Also my husband wasn’t here for the birth of our daughter he was deployed so he feels like incomplete when it comes to her. He feels like he’s missed out on so much and he really did but that’s Military life for you. We wanted to start trying after he got back so we did it’s only been 4 months of trying but it’s so hard with not knowing my body. With Tinsley it took 7 months. I don’t want to sound like a broken record or ungrateful I’m just hurting is all.