Patience in the TWW

I’m a Christian and trying with all my might to put baby #2 in God’s hands. I pray that the Lord’s will be done and that small part of me still wants control and to be impatient and buy a thousand pregnancy test and start testing now even though I’m only 3 dpo and have become obsessive over it. Baby number one only really took one try and I can’t remember being this anxious though I’m sure I was. The Lord’s timing perfect and yet I’m having such a hard time with it. Prayers for me and my patience during this TWW!