I want to cry!!!! ? devastated!

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af is 16 days late hpt negative blood work negative I was so positive I was pregnant and just not showing up on hpt. Im devastated and upset I thought this was my month. I swear I give up. Im so over feeling like my own body is against me. Why do we have to go through this anxious feeling month after month to only be left feeling devastated...its just not meant to be.