I need help. Motivation. Something.

My sophomore year of highschool, I was around 185-190lbs. 5’3, pretty curvy. Back then, I thought I was “fat.”

I was in a relationship with this guy who, overall, never really treated me right. I thought I was in love, thought everything would fix itself.

During this relationship I gained weight. I’m now a whopping 237. I never thought I’d see myself. It’s got me looking at the scale and the mirror like:

I’ve never really been confident. I know it’s only like 50 or so pounds, but it’s taken me this long to gain it. I’m so afraid I’m going to keep gaining it.

I’m headed into my senior year of highschool. Back in September (we dated for almost 1.5 years) he left me for another girl (she’s not skinny either, that’s not what this is about.)

I spiraled out of control and noticed myself getting bigger. I got stretch marks everywhere, my stomach and legs grew, and now I can barely see my ankles. I never have energy and I’ve also been diagnosed with spondylolisthesis, lupus, and possible fibromyalgia.

The average person might not say so, but it’s what I’m seeing and crying about daily.

I have no motivation to lose the weight and I often eat my feelings, i don’t have the money for any sort of gym membership and even if I did, between school and work I’d never have time.

I need some advice.

This is me, in a few pictures...

I am very highly insecure and I am tired of seeing myself this way.

I am ashamed to make such a post because I know all of you ladies will tell me about how beautiful i am and about how I should love my body and not feel bad about how I look.

Please someone share with me your weight loss advice, tips, or opinions. Anything helps, thanks ladies.👍🏼❤️