riding... [repost (+updated*)]

I want to ride my boyfriend, but I'm a little bigger, and he and I are afraid I might do something wrong and hurt him.

I REALLY want to try it, but he's more worried about it than I am- which is understandable (also considering at this point I have bit the tip because i slipped while doing oral and drew blood before... he said that he doesn't trust that I'll keep him safe)

I'm curious, and I heard it's heavenly. but I also fear that if he does let me do it because I'm big, I may hurt him/I won't feel anything.

I know that size differences matter too? but I'm overweight at 5'4-5ish, and he's 6'1 with somewhat broad hips.

I really want to try it, but I fear I'm too big and will hurt him.

please help.

*update*

so yesterday after we got out of the shower we decided to try it. he sat down, and I got on top of him, and it hurt both of us a little from the penetration. since we were both in a more experimental mindset, we really didn't do much beforehand to get, er, revved up except for a bit of fondling in the shower.

side note for a bit of context- He and i take a bit of a weird route to experimentation? we like to sort of try something a few times beforehand before we actually bring it to the bedroom as an event- like trial runs. it's weird, but we like knowing that nothing will happen (I.e hurting each other, the position being too awkward due to the size difference) when we're majorly turned on- because then it just ruins the experience and we mentally cannot continue.

anyway we used lube to help, and I did feel good, but it still hurt a lot. in all honesty, it felt like a percentage of loosing my V-card again. so, my suspicion is that A) we need to be in the mood, B) I need to flex my spine and move my hips more to get into a sort of

rhythm.

he held my hips and guided my through it, he had always suggested a sort of twerking movement when it comes to riding- i feel ridiculous trying to twerk- but the movement he had my hips doing made it feel a lot better because I am so stiff.

so, the verdict he and I reached was that we would just have to try it some more to see if I get the hang of it. i also bled a little, but it was no big deal. I believe it was mainly from the penetration.

and interesting thing is though, he said he didn't like it much because he felt like he wasn't doing anything-like he was just taking it-and how he gets off is knowing what he's going to do to me and taking charge.

I told him that that's how I felt sometimes when we do our usual position and we both laughed it off.

thank you so much ladies for helping me! I may update in the future to let you know if we got any better at it.