I think there’s something up with my boyfriend

For starters, he acts like he doesn’t want to sleep with me. I do all the work to get him hard, he never returns the favor, ever. When we have sex it’s either me on top (him looking away), or from the back (spooning sex). Not only that, we made a deal and I did my end, his end was to buy condoms so we can try different things without worrying about the risk (I track my ovulation and check my cervix daily). He refuses to buy condoms because “they’re too expensive”. I told him “well look, they have $6 ones” and he said “yeah, you know how many burgers we can get from McDonald’s? Like 6”. Seriously, instead of making excuses he should man up. Then, get this, I’m the only one who ever initiates sex! Half the time I’m rejected so he can play on his phone, the other 25% is because he’s “too tired” (he watches Netflix), then there’s the 25% of the time it finally happens. But again, I’m the only one initiating it, I’m the one doing all the work. I just don’t feel like he’s into us anymore. I brought it up before and he says “it’s not that, I’m just tired from work” or “I have to wake up early”. Again, excuses, excuses. I’m to the point where I’m having body issues now. He calls me fat, he made fun of my nose knowing I’m very self conscious about it. I even told him if we had the money I’d get a nose job, he never said “no don’t” or “your nose is beautiful the way it is”, nothing! He even made fun of me for wanting to workout at home, since I have no way to get to a gym (I currently don’t have a car). Other things he’s discouraged me in doing? Going to college to be a nurse or a dentist, told me it’s a waste of time and money, then said “it takes too long”. I never see my friends or barley contact them because he throws a fit if I want to hang out with them. He doesn’t care about my friends either, only his. He discouraged me in getting a license, knowing I will only drive with one. He doesn’t even sit on the same couch as me. Instead he sits on the other one playing on his phone. I recently just lost my job and joked saying “I’ll just sell my soul to the adult industry, hahah”, he never went against it or said something like “well you’ll find a job babe”. I swear, it’s all about him. Now that I’m having body issues, I can’t help but want to stop eating because I’m “fat”. I’m trying so hard to love myself, and love what I hate but he feeds into it. I feel like breaking down just writing that. It’s always me and our kid he barley helps to take care of 😕