I want to ask a girl out - but I’m so mentally fucked up and I told her.. I told her I might even take my life away and she still told me she doesn’t care and wants to be with me and will do anything to be with me and make me happy and okay again... I really like her, but I’m scared I will do something to my self one day.. I know if I was gone she will be heartbroken but will she be more heartbroken if we were “official” ... I’m so confused ...

right now were basically a couple.. but it’s not official.. because of me..

What should I do?