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So me and my bestfriend have known each other for over two years now and have been through so much together. Well I’m going into tenth grade and recently she told me that she started liking girls. I had liked girls for a while, but I just never felt like it was acceptable or okay. My dad is religious and has told me that if I ever told him I was gay/bi that he would assume it was a phase and move on. My mom, who knows that my bestfriend likes girls but not me, looked at me and said that “she was glad she didn’t end up with the gay kid”. Anyway, at our school I’ve only dated guys and only a few of my closest girlfriends know that I’m bi. I’ve only had two experiences with girls, and both were repeated one night stands. I always make the joke to my bestfriend that “I get all the guys and she gets all the girls”, but it really sucks because I’d love a relationship with a girl, but that doesn’t seem likely unless I came out to the entire school which would get back to my parents. I just wanna relationship with a girl, one I can hold and love on & be there for, but no one knows I go that way other than a few people. I just want the right girl😩 advice?