My hopes, again, damn.

Shiva

I have two babies, 2 and 3. I got pregnant FIRST month, not trying... not even knowing how hard it was. A year and half ago, started to think about #3. And it just never happened. And so the madness started (ov stripe, addition to this ap, cm). But I turned 40 along the way and my husband said, it’s time to stop trying. We are too old. He really doesn’t want another. I was finally coming to terms with it...

Then this week - I was asked by 6 different people if we were do e/trying for a girl, even encouraging it. I saw my Dr wife, she said hop to another one, we make beautiful babies. Lol

Is it a sign not to give up? My heart wants to think I’ll have a surprise next week with af due. But my mind is prepping me for one more month of disappointment.

No protection, not trying, just living life.