I was trying to find one to track going to the gym in a “hey, good job, you ran today!” “Oh hell yeah, you’re doing X reps at X weight, neato!” way. But almost everything I’ve run into is about calorie restriction & weight loss.

I’m not looking to be triggered all day every day. I have a very delicate balance happening right now. I can work out for the sake of keeping healthy, and I’m trying to focus on making better choices with food. I don’t want to go back to skipping meals and going to the gym for 6 hours.

I used to be bulimic and I suffer from dysmorphia

I’m also just super nervous about my body right now because it’s been two years since anyone has seen me naked. A boy is coming to visit soon and I’m so worried he’s going to be disgusted by me & my fat rolls & ugly face & the state of my thighs & misshapen chest & every glaring flaw. I’m trying not to fall back into it. Ran 5.8 miles today but I haven’t gone off the deep end.

It’s so stressful to still be thinking about these things