Masterbation 🤷🏼‍♀️

I can’t finger myself! It’s the most frustrating thing 😡I’m a virgin so I want to be able to prepare myself with fingering but I can’t seem to push in very far. It’s like there’s a wall there preventing me from going any deeper then 2cm. I usually master bate by humping and grinding on a pillow 😂 I’ve been doing that since I was eleven but I want to try fingering since many girls swear by it. And yes before u comment > I am relaxed I am turned on AND I am wet 😂 it’s as if my vagina is like “ bitch no this finger ain’t no dick!”🙄. Someone please help meeee!!!

I’ve researched a little and I know your not meant to look up symptoms on the inter webs but I’m desperate!!!!! For as long as I can remember I have had very long light periods > ranging from 7-9 days long and I just thought that was the norm. But I found online is that I may have a micropreforate hymen. This is when the hymen is thicker then a regular hymen and there is no visible “vagina hole” 😂. I’m gonna try tampons to test wether I should visit the gyno or not :)))) wish me luck ladies xx