For the lack of better terms, I have a boyfriend. And we have accepted about everything about each other, including the things that society can consider extremely shameful like unusual interests. We know each other for three years. Going to college and he will be in a year, senior high school and all.

He wanted children and I do not. He says that he won’t force me to have children, to which I’m thankful for, but whenever the topic comes up, he’s still understanding about me not wanting children, but he would always say, “Well, you know... you might think differently in the future and want to have children.” And I understand that the future always changes and so do people. I’m not a type to really want to care for children at the moment.

Just earlier through text, he mentioned to me that his mom told him that she wants grandchildren and his mother loves children very much. Considering on adopting this baby she was taking care of for a friend and treating that child like her own child. She really likes kids and uh..... I really don’t. My boyfriend also loves kids but uh, I don’t heh. We’re pretty much a good bunch of opposites, him being a Christian and me... not much of a believer.

He would still want to have children, but I feel like he’s disappointed by my wants of not wanting one. And he’s eagerly waiting for the time I will have a change of mind and have children.

Of course I will stand abide with my wants of not wanting children since he still want to marry me in the future, out of the love he has for me.

I know that we are still very young, me being 18 and him being 17. Teenagers still, in fact. He still dreams of having children after college. And I can still feel his hope of me changing my mind, and I don’t know what to think of it.

Can someone please tell me what I should think? Or feel about this?