Really nervous!

Joy
My period was due today and it didn't show up. I kinda think I'm pregnant but I don't want to test. I'm pretty regular(28 day cycle) with help of maca root and red raspberry leaves supplements. Having pcos you can never tell if it's weight gain, stress, diet, karma, cysts, mercury is out of orbit, etc that causes missed cycles. The symptoms that I have had the last 5-6 days is increased saliva, mild/moderate breast tenderness/ back pain, cramping and fatigue. I want to test I just can't deal with the disappointment. It's beyond annoying!