I’m thinking should I get on anti depressants? I was prescribed some when I was 16 I couldn’t get them because my grandmother didn’t like the idea of it . I just need a change I feel so stuck in life losing my mom really did something to me she passed 8 years ago then my dad passed just last summer. Life has just been so hard I don’t feel good enough at all last year I was so close to dying because of anorexia I thought starving myself would be a painless death I would just die in my sleep or something . I recovered but at the same time I get these thoughts that’s why I’m debating if I should get on antidepressants since I’m 19 now I can go to the doctors for myself & get them . Someone help me out what are some good antidepressants