I'm so emotional this is the only place where I can be honest. My unofficial so off and on for 4 yrs. Hell I want a child with the Man I love so I'm trying but not trying. We do not use protection but I keep track with this app because I think its so strange I've never been preggos. I'm 33 divorced. I kind of stopped hoping for it because I realize we rarely have sex during my peak so strange it could be every day before and after that time. But the last 3 months its been on point. I went on vacay and returned home during my peak day July 4th I was so bummed he and I missed each other because he had to go away too. But to my surprise he came back in to town literally for a very good insanely nice welcome me back way. Just in time for 2am ovulation !!! I swear he went back to where he was right after . his kids live a couple hours away so of course for the holiday he went to visit.

I doubt I'm pregnant in fact I've been so emotional and I'm my great sore since right before well emotional these last few days. My neighbor sat me down to tell me she is pregnant with her lovers child she's been sleeping with a few months and wants to abort. I'm starting a real estate business and I just feel so emotional tired unloved lonely sad afraid everything I just needed to vent. Everyone gets pregnant except for me. I want my family an extension of me and him. And I want to know I'm not broken. :(