Ah yes, the lovely TWW... A time to try to become as busy as possible so (hopefully) the days will go by quicker and you won’t have to over analyze every twinge in your stomach, how sore your breasts are today as opposed to yesterday, and Google disgusting pictures of CM when women “swear they are pregnant” and see how it compares to yours... No matter how busy you are, it always is in the back of your mind.... 1DPO, 2DPO......

The TWW makes me feel the most vulnerable, mostly from the surge of hormones, PMS, and the fact that I’m not in total control over my fertility as I would desire to be (Wouldn’t it be awesome to push a button and become pregnant automatically???) Sure you can temp, OPKs, BD when appropriately, etc, but ultimately it’s out of your hands and you pray that the stars align perfectly so you can conceive.

Today is 10DPO for me, I’ve read for approximately 2 hours now all of the posts on Glow of people who got their BFP on these days, and many who didn’t and were given lots of “baby dust” and tricks that others used to conceive. I was one of the unlucky ones. Even though I prayed for “those two lines”, today wasn’t my day.

I don’t know why I subject myself to test early, I suppose I want to be a mother more than anything else. The emotions of only seeing one line is equivalent to someone punching you in the stomach until you are breathless. It hurts. It’s raw pain.

Yet, in two more days I’ll try it again and pray that the stars have aligned. Praying for all that are in my position with me, sprinkling “baby dust” your way. 💗