I’m afraid to be happy

Hey ladies.

I’ve been ttc for a year now, has an early mc in April. This month was very strange- I went and did hormone tests, talked to the Doctor, who said to come back in half a year if you are still not preggo.

I tried to catch the ovulation with opk but I had 12 days of highs and no peak until I ran out of tests.

Now I’m technically 3 days before AF and I’ve tested today several times today. I see a vvfl but I’m so afraid that it will end up in mc again as two months ago.

Don’t know if I can tell my so or what should I do really?! I’m more lost that happy. All mommies are announcing their Bfp and I’m just afraid that the line will go away.

Any support of all happy mommies there who had a miscarriage would be super helpful. Ideas and stories are also appreciated:)))