Devastating weekend

Not sure where to post this....

So my period was a few days late at the beginning of the week. So I took two tests 😍it was positive. Ready or not baby number 2 was on the way. 2 under 2 sounds scary. But we were excited. My son is currently 10 months old and glued to mom 24/7.

Come Saturday I woke up feeling weird and not right. I got to the bathroom to find blood. I start crying. I don’t know what to do. At this point I’m 6 weeks along and nobody knows yet. So I call my mom. She tells me I should probably go to the hospital. So she comes over to watch my son while my husband and I head the the er.

Blood work and an internal ultrasound and the doctor still can’t give me any definite answer. Only that my HgC level is 10 and that I’m most likely having a miscarriage. Just instructions to come back if the bleeding gets any heavier.

I don’t know how I feel. I don’t know what to do. It’s just my husband and I to deal with this. My mom checks in everyday to see how I am but I don’t know how I am. I snuggle my son when I’m feeling like I’m going to cry. I continue with my life. But it’s hard when I piece of you is missing.

How have you other mommas dealt with this😭😭 I just need a little support and reassurance it’s not my fault. I know it’s not but it’s hard to not feel like it is.

Struggling momma.