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Maddi • || CA|| In Love w/ My Firefighter|| Live,Learn,Love
Recently I've been thinking a lot about the abortion I had in January. I realized that it was a mistake & that I should of thought about it more before I had the procedure. I thought it was the right thing to do because I'm 17 and don't have a job. And at the time me and my bf were scared. But, now i regret it. I would have been 8 months prego by now and I know I would of been the best mom to my little one. After this my bf and I kept having unprotected sex and I found myself pregnant again in May.  A few days before my doctors appointment I was bleeding a lot. I couldn't have a tampon in for more then an hour without bleeding through it. On the day of my doctors appointment I found out I had a miscarriage. I was so upset because this time my bf and I were going to do whatever we could for our baby, but the worst of the worst happened. Now I'm scared to get pregnant again. Loosing two babies at such a young age has had a huge affect on me and has mentally strained me.