Does it get easier? 😭

Okay guys, I have been wanting to get pregnant for sooo long, SO and I tried for 3 years and 5 months with a MC last October. I’m beyond grateful for having the opportunity to be a mother, and finding out was the best day of my life (sorry hubby, the wedding was great but this tops it)😂 anyway I’ve been feeling so guilty because I wanted this so bad, yet I feel terrible. When I say terrible, I mean I’m used to tummy trouble I have a few gastrointestinal issues, but I’m talking vomiting no less than 6 times throughout the day, dry heaving every hour or so when I’m not actually vomiting, I mean I can’t even hold down crackers and water in the mornings, been taking b6 and unisom as directed by OB, yet I’ve been feeling extremely ill, I mean I have busted blood vessels in my face/neck from straining so hard while vomiting. I feel like a bad person complaining because this is what I’ve always wanted and I’m growing a human life so I’m beyond excited, but any advice or ideas when you started feeling better? I feel like this first trimester is dragging along slowly and the nausea is here to stay for some time. Am I gonna be a bad mom because I can’t even handle the nausea? I’ve been having serious meltdowns over this because I feel like an asshole of a mother complaining to my husband about feeling shitty during such a beautiful time of our life.