Back when he first cheated on me I went full psycho b**** And hacked all of his apps, Snapchat, Facebook, found out all of his Kik accounts and logged into them, even his emails because he has multiple for cheating. I hacked into his Dropbox and found not just girls nudes but dick pics that weren’t his. And I’m not judgmental at all about this stuff because I’ve tested the waters too to see how I felt about girls and I found out that I like their faces not their pussy and that’s okay. And if my boyfriend might be bisexual that’s okay too. But I’ve been with him long enough now to see he feels he’s got to be “the man” and even refers to people as faggots as an insult and will even say that s*** in public like today in sephora he saw a man or whatever gender they would prefer to be called was wearing makeup and clearly worked there and he, under his breath, said, “oh my god, what a faggot”. Like I’m sure maybe he’s repressing it because I don’t bring up the nudes often at all not since it happened when he cheated. We’ve got passed the cheating incident but if he’s bisexual I want him to know I wouldn’t love him any less because I feel like he’s being aggressive because he might be pushing who is down. I don’t know because when I brought it up today in the chik fil a line I was gonna bring it up jokingly bc one of his friends came out a trans yesterday and I said “it’s okay if you’re attracted to guys you know” and he cut me off and I couldn’t even get out that it was okay if he explored and found out that he wasn’t bisexual or that I loved him if he was and wouldn’t change how I look at him because I love him. And I want him happy.

Not repressed.

Am I being pushy? Am I going about this the wrong way? I want him to be comfortable and it’s irks me that he may be hiding who he is.

UPDATE:

You guys are complete assholes. Focusing on something that happened when we were kids? 15 years old? We’re 20 now. That shit happened five years ago. And questioning my fucking character because I stayed with him? Or because I’m staying even though he calls people faggots? I assumed it’s his way of dealing with his problems and I admit he needs to stop bc it’s pretty aggressive. What’s sad is you judging my character based on who I’m dating rather than who I am. As if you know me😂 I love this man and have since what feels like forever. And I want him happy and for him to find out who he is if he is bi sexual. Or gay. I want him happy. I don’t judge someone by who they were 5 years ago especially when they were so young. He treats me like a queen and gives me whatever I want and need and I feel so loved and it’s a trusting relationship and we’re very open about everything which is why I was so concerned when he shut me down today over it. He’s always open with me. He lets me have his passwords and I don’t even use them they just sit in my notes. So for anyone who isn’t going to actually answer about my problem, take your attitudes and opinions elsewhere because your negativity is not needed. Byeeeeee