I never wanted to be apart of this again. I never wanted to feel this again. I never wanted to be here, wiping blood and looking for the body. I never wanted to feel the pain that leads nowhere again. I pray to god that the bleeding is just a fluke but I’m bleeding VERY heavily and having SUPER bad cramps... I know inside that the baby is gone but for some reason I am holding on to hope. This is my husbands first pregnancy loss and I feel so guilty about it and I know it wasn’t my fault but I feel like it was. I just don’t know what to do.