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Im falling for my best friend🙊

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This is all real I wouldn't put something fake on here just for comments I wrote this here because I used to like him and then I stopped because he never shared the same feelings. Now that were doing things a couple would do I started falling for him again and I am scared to tell him how I feel because I don't want to get rejected for the 4th time by him. I need to get these feeling out and I like writing and I love <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">eve</a> because its a support group so thank you for reading and commenting and Sorry this is going to be long.

Me & this guy have been friends for 2 years now & I consider him my best friend. A couple of months ago we were talking about things we want to do so we decided that we were going to explore with each other but keep it strictly business, & we can't catch feelings. It started with him giving me a breast massage because mine always hurt, that was the first time a guy had ever touched me so I was definitely wet when I got home.

The next time he gave me a breast massage & sucked them. The third time he fingered me.

One night we tried to have sex but it just didn't work on both parts & it was horrible & embarrassing, After that night we decided the next time I would give him a blow job.

When the time came I freaked out & it was a good 30mins until I could put it in when I finally did it it was too big for my mouth and I would keep stopping & it would hurt him because every time I stopped it was when he was getting close.

As I was giving him head the police drove in the parking lot & they stopped at the car we were in & I had to stop because they started to shine their light in the car but since the police was in the front of the car & we were in the back seat & I was on the floor behind the seat & his car windows are tented the police gladly couldn't see anything & drove off. I was in shock & relieved & didn't know what to do so we sat there in silence until he said let's try sex again.

We did & it was so good that when we were done I fell asleep in his lap. After that night we had sex a couple more times but it was never as good as the first time. One day we went to the store together & afterward I was hungry so we went to Popeyes & I gave him my card to pay for my food & he's like no I got it & paid for me. When we got to our destination he turned off his car & put his keys in the cup holder & I picked them up just to look at them an on his key ring was the keychain I gave him 2 years ago & at that moment a spark of feelings started to come up again.

Also that night he went down on me for the first time. Right, when he was hitting my spots he would stop to breathe & I thought it was so funny because I did the same thing when I gave him a blow job for the first time but I would stop because it hurt. I wanted us to still hang out without being sexual so he went to JCPenny's with me & then we went to Target. We were walking in Target & he kept walking behind me & it made me uncomfortable because I have back fat & I still want to look pretty in his eyes. I told him can you like walk beside me & not behind me. I think he thought I said that because I thought he was looking at my butt. He was like I'm just following you & so I would turn & walk backwards & try to hide & he's like you act like I haven't seen it before & then I gave him that look & he's like I probably shouldn't have said that out loud & I'm like you think. When we get to the aisle I needed he was looking at a globe trying to find Japan so I went to go help him & as I was looking he started getting close to me & sniffing me

& I moved & was like boy get off me. So I took the globe & went to the next aisle & he followed me & he tried to sniff me again & I put the folder I was holding between us & then we both started laughing. Then he walked away but I was determined to find Japan so I kept looking & there he goes again sniffing me & I playfully pushed him telling him to stop & he said that's karma because the last time we had sex he smelled so good I just kept sniffing him because his smell was addictive. Once we found Japan we put the globe back & he's like let me see your glasses. I pull them off & hand them to him & I cover my face because I look ugly without my glasses. He said my glasses felt like he was wearing drunk goggles. I told him I wanted my glasses back & I held my hand out & he grabs it & holds it & he's like let me put them on your face. I slide the folder down from my eyes & he puts them on & I remove the folder & he grabs my face & kisses me on my lips in public.